Here is what client's are saying about the power of Positive Touch and the therapist's at Restore Me Clinic.
As a child, as far back as I can remember, my body never belonged to me. There was always someone else who had power over it. So, to protect myself, I dissociated. I dissociated not only from what was happening to me, but from my whole physical being. This disconnect went so deeply that I used to say that I didn’t have a body. I would have a pain somewhere and not know if it was a splitting headache or a stubbed toe. There was simply no connection at all between my Self and my body. But, through the years I realised that this was something that I needed to change. So, every time I stayed at DP I would sign up for the massage sessions on offer. Others may have signed up for massage for relaxation, to have some pampering time – but for me massage was a serious challenge. I saw it as a frightening, but important, tool in practising positive touch.
In the beginning, every time I was touched, I would immediately start having vivid flashbacks, and most of the session was spent trying to come out of these flashbacks. But I persevered with signing up for massage every chance I got. So, this year, when I was given the opportunity to work with Mina more regularly, and for longer sessions, I knew it was something that I wanted to do. I had contemplated having massage outside of DP before, but had never felt able to, as it would mean working with someone I didn’t know, and who might not appreciate just how difficult being touched is for me. With Mina, I knew that I would be working with someone who I felt safe with, someone who understood and was sensitive to my needs. There is just something about the friendliness and the warmth that Mina radiates that makes me feel calm and cared for. From our very first session together Mina has taken her lead from me, asking if what she is doing feels OK for me, if there is anything I need her to do differently to make the experience less traumatic. And, slowly, over time I have become much more able to tolerate touch and to begin to relate to my body in a new way.
There are still times when I go into flashbacks, but when that happens we get through that together, and whereas at the beginning of the treatment I would say that I felt 95 per cent frightened and anxious, and only 5 percent excited about getting to have a massage, now the figures are reversed. I have been continually amazed at how far I have come, from the very first session where I started shaking uncontrollably from head to toe, to being able to feel relaxed and safe while being touched by Mina.
I have also noticed that this change isn’t just within the safe confines of my sessions with Mina; although I still suffer from frequent PTSD flashbacks, I am a lot less on edge than I used to be. I can sense my own body, and I feel far more comfortable within it. I would even go so far as to say that I have begun to appreciate it.
So, if anyone else is in the position I was, I would tell them to give massage therapy a go. I know it can be scary, but, for me, having these regular sessions with Mina has played a pivotal role in beginning to reclaim ownership of my own body.
- Lisia’s story (Testimonial)